Have you ever wanted something so bad but you have to wait on it for a few days, months, or even a year? I have, and it isn't fun for me to wait. By nature I am an impatient person, I want things fast paced and getting immediate results.
But this time, the one that I am waiting for is such an important thing in my life. A big part, at that. College admission test results. I have this fear at the back of my mind that I won't get to pass the two schools I applied for. Two(UP and DLSU) of the Big Four universities in the country, and I don't even have a back up school just in case. Thoughts like: "What if I don't pass in either of these schools?", "What will happen to me?" come to mind. I begin to doubt myself that maybe there was someone who was smarter than me that will pass instead.
Stressing over the thought of passing, I also doubt my decisions in the courses that I chose. Maybe I was caught up in the hype of these courses or maybe I was influenced by my parents or even my friends. Do I really want to pursue this course that I chose? Is this really what I want? Those thoughts come to mind.
But as I wait for those results, I was reminded by these verses. Psalm 27:14: "Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD." and Jeremiah 29:11: "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Reading and meditating on these verses helped me a lot and it gave peace to my impatient heart. Waiting isn't one of my best qualities. But waiting on the Lord is something that I want and need to do. I know He has something exciting for my future. And in whatever college He places me in, I know He will use me there to testify of His greatness and faithfullness. It's still a struggle for me to wait, but having these promises from Him makes all the wait worthwhile.
I ask you to pray for and with me, but not just for me, but for my fellow batchmates who are, as well, eagerly waiting for the college admission test results next year. Thank you so much and God bless :)
